Defying Gravity

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I’m through with playing by the rules
Of someone else’s game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It’s time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes, and leap!

It’s time to try
Defying gravity
I think I’ll try
Defying gravity
And you can’t pull me down!

Breathing Underwater – Marie Digby

There’s a light in the dark
Where the sky splits apart
Where the stars find a way
To shine through all the spaces in between
Here we are face to face
All alone in this place
And the night is finally coming down to you and me

Tell me where you’ve been hiding?
Oh I want to know
You’re my silver lining covered in gold
Tell me what am I feeling?
Well it’s hard to explain
Like underwater breathing
Swimming in rain

Oh oh… All I really wanna do, do
Is fall a little deeper with you, you
And never come up, breathing breathing underwater
Weightless with every little kiss you steal, boy
You are making me feel, feel
Like I’m breathing, breathing breathing underwater

In my memory, Mohd Nabil Zaim

I only got to be classmates with Mohd Nabil Zaim this year. Nevertheless, he was always the guy that was right behind me. Maybe I took for granted the fact that I thought he would always be right behind me, maybe I just assumed people will stay. Well I assumed wrongly. Nabil was the guy that was there when I cried. Nabil was the guy that said things to make me feel better. Nabil was the guy that would start throwing solutions at me when I’m too tired to think. Nabil was the guy that, he was just, there.

Nabil is the guy going off to boarding school in Malacca.

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So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it’s worth it was worth all the while

It’s something unpredictable, but in the end it’s right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

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Dear Nabil,

Hi! (:

First off, I want to apologize. I’m sorry that I didn’t make time to know you better than I do. I’m sorry for all the times I might have taken you for granted. I’m sorry I didn’t get the opportunity to really know you like I should have.

Thank you for all the times you were there to help out, even though it wasn’t even your responsibility and you really didn’t have to. Thank you for all those moments you listened when I cried and whined and moaned like a little brat. Thank you for being there when I needed to be motivated. Really, just thank you.

I found out you were leaving today and every thing just comes rushing back. You know that feeling? When you suddenly see things in flashback and you regret not making every second more memorable. But wherever you are, whatever you’re doing, I’m sure you’ll excel. I’m sure you’ll always be walking on sunshine (:

I guess, it’ll be so weird to just go to class and turn around to an empty seat. It’ll be weird not having someone to gossip with. Weirder when everything seems too quiet because there’s no Nabil gossiping. It’ll be so weird without all those bizzare questions of the days. It’ll be weird when there’s no one singing random songs out of no where. It’ll be weird not having you around. Because in the short time we’ve been class mates, you really have grown on me.

I really wished I had more time to know you better, handle more assignments together, copy each other’s homework, b*tch about people, and just so many things I suddenly regret not doing.

I’m sorry if I’ve done anything to upset you, now or before. I’m sorry if there was something I didn’t do. But I’m most sorry that you’re leaving for real and I never had a chance to say a proper, proper goodbye.

So. Here I go.

BYE NABIL! I’ll miss you, of that I’m sure.

Because we made memories

- MayMay